Wow, can I say thank you to everyone who has posted on this thread? It’s hugely encouraging to hear other people’s stories and advice. I grew up in a mentally/emotionally abusive family and I was recently diagnosed with a mental disorder. It took me a couple years to even be able to admit to myself that there was abuse in my background and there were some really dark times for awhile, but it was my animals that pulled me through it.
I do not own a horse, but worked at a barn for the last several years and whenever I was having a truly rough day, I could always count on the horses, my dog and bunnies to make me feel better. Being unconditionally accepted by them was/is one of the most healing things for me.
I would also struggle with not wanting to drive to the barn some days, but like others have said, what got me out there was knowing that all the horses were depending on me for feed/cleaning/turnout etc. Usually after I got to the barn and said a few hellos to my favorites I had enough to start what I was there for. (I realize my situation was a bit different, being that I was working for the barn and not boarding there, but knowing animals were depending on me was what got me going.)
I’ve made progress in learning how to manage situations and deal with my “triggers”, but my animals are still a huge part of my support and I don’t ever see that changing.