Sorry this is a novel and a half!!
A year and a half ago I bought a school master (see some other posts) to help me jump bigger. He is everything I hoped for and more. Last summer we had some success in the 1.0m ring, not winning a bunch but clear rounds that made me feel good and had fun which is my only goal. We attempted a move up, got eliminated at the in and out, but felt pretty proud I tried. Funds limit us to a couple of schooling shows, one rated, and a couple of clinics. I planned to do two rates shows this summer and a few more schooling shows with hopes of making it to the 1.10m by the end of the season. Well last schooling show (a couple of months ago) we had a stop/elimination at the 0.90s. It was an in and out. Now Iām going over my year in my head, and realizing I havenāt jumped a course at that height since probably August. Weāve only schooled the in and out at height once. We have a smaller indoor but enough to do a small course at 1.0m. I jump 2x a week, but as a busy adult sometimes I miss one, and often the barn is so busy that my jump lesson is only a few jumps (4-8 total). We are an extremely busy barn with a lesson program in addition to the full training program that Iām part of. Rarely do jumps exceed 2ā6ā. So itās not uncommon that I go weeks where Iāve only jumped a handful of fences total and go a month or two or three without jumping a single jump at 1.0m height. I talked to my trainer about it and she thinks that we need to save his legs (heās 17). My trainer does travel quite a bit, she does a few more shows than I do but also does 5-8 weeks of vacation a year because sheās technically retired. The assistants cover but weāre limited to 2ā and under when sheās gone. Iām starting to feel like I donāt jump enough to be showing at that height. We donāt have anyone showing higher other than my trainer and a couple at my height so thats part of it.
Heās still pretty game, heās real fit, I know I canāt jump his legs off, but Iām not feeling confident to go show and the reality is he is running out of time whether I jump him or not. There is no more money for another horse. Iām feeling a bit at a loss. Last summer we jumped 3x a week and I know heās a year older but Iām not sure thatās too much for him still at this age. I had high hopes of trying to dabble in the 1.10m before he needs to step down but Iāve kinda lost hope on that. I understand this is a tough balance, for me to learn as much as I can I would jump every day. He is very experienced and could literally never jump except at a show and make it around. We need to find a balance that keeps him sound but helps me learn and be confident.
To me I think I have three options:
- Deal with it, do the 1.0m, feel a little unconfident in the ring and grab mane. Heās a good boy, he takes care of me. 1.0m is pretty easy for him
- Stop showing and just enjoy the ride. I learn and have fun which is really all I can ask. I could be ok with this although I was hoping to get a couple more seasons out of him. Again, there is no plan B. This is it.
- Show at the 0.80s/0.90m where things are pretty easy for both of us (I have no interest in this but it is an option)
- Try to ādemandā we jump more at home, I think I could probably force it but Iām not sure thatās what I want out of my barn/trainer relationship. There is also the issue that my trainer is gone so much.
- Find a different program that matches my goals better. I love my barn mates, the community is amazing, my trainer has been excellent in getting us here, but this is also an option.
Ok wise women (and men!) of COTH, what thoughts/advice do you have for me?