[QUOTE=pintopiaffe;4421134]
Unite here!
It’s not quite a disability–certainly not in the way of some… but we are not really normal either.
What is your greatest frustration?
-Mine is the unpredictability of it. Fine one day, can barely move the next. Pain I can deal with but the pain on top of the fatigue which make you lose entire days…
What have you found helps?
-surprizingly for me, plain old Aspirin seems to work as well as anything I’ve tried. I’ve tried diet changes, which help some, but never seem to be able to stick with them, even though I stuck wtih Atkins for 18 months.
What else?
-I just wanted to sort of start the discussion. Perhaps we don’t belong in this forum, but ‘normal’ folks sometimes don’t really get the challenge it is to live with this either… ;)[/QUOTE]
Amen, this is how I feel. I have some family members and several friends and/or people that know me and they can’t understand why I can’t work, but can go out and ride a 12oo lbs horse for a while some days are go to a horse show once a month and show a few classes. In the old days I worked and showed several 2 day shows a month.
My family doesnot understandy why it takes me till noon to get dressed and get my muscles working again but can be out by 2 or 3 and do some barn and yard work?
My muscles, my brain, speech, joints just don’t always work when I need them to.
People only see me when I am out at the store or with the horses a few hours a week. They don’t see what I went through to get dressed and on some days find my way to the store in a town that I have lived in for 50 years.
Many Cothers give me a hard time about my spelling, wording, etc on some of my post, but my brain is not working then.
The worst thing about my illness is it is hidden, I live a lone and I do not solcilize, I am either in bed or trying to care for my home and horses. This is the best I can do.
I have my father that does not understand it, even though my mother/his wife has it. He has to let me know all the time how much he has to help me, it just makes it worse, I will never kill myself, but I don’t want to be alive either, I pray to God everynight to come and take me.
I have not been able to get diability either, so I depend on my parents. But I can’t hold a job, I never know what day and what hours I could work, who is going to hire someone like me, no one. Plus I have chemical senetivity, I can’t find a job where the perfume, sprays, fumes, etc make me very very ill.
I hate being this way. People just don’t understand me so I stay alone, and I am tired of tring to explain it. One lady I ride with is always on me about my weight, that I need to go to the gym, I have told her till I am blue in the face, I can’t do that. I have to do strecthing excercises.
If I have my legs cut off and was in a wheel chair I would have nothing but support and help from family and friends.
I am tired of being thought of as dumb and lazy, when on a good day I can out work anyone.
From the stress of my filly being murdered it is all worse and now I auto immune and can’t fight infection.
I don’t know what to do? I know I can’t live like this much longer with no money , no health ins.
I worked and paid into SSI for 40 years and can’t get it, even with 5 doctors writing letters and backing me. :(