The Big C! RIP Kim, see pg. 218

It’s ok not to look forward to having medical procedures done. No one does. You’re not being whiny. It won’t be enjoyable but it’ll be over and you’ll be back to normal and have it behind you soon.

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Kim, you want to hear about a whiney baby? Well here I am , I can’t even muster up enough courage to go get one measly cataract fixed. Seriously, I had the mother of all meltdowns about it a couple of months ago. And its JUST a cataract, no big deal. But my inner baby pitched a fit over it. It wasn’t pretty.
So I don’t think you are whiney at all! Nope, not one bit. Being poked at by doctors sucks, even if its for your own good.
I am glad that you decided to go for the port. Let us know how you are when you can. Although I don’t post very often, I think of you every day.

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I might have something to brighten your day. One of my dogs just killed a small groundhog in my garden. You can pretend it was yours, if you want! She was very proud of herself and rather upset that I took it away from her. Unfortunately, I think it was probably a spring baby of the big one that I often see right outside the garden fence, so we might not be out of the woods yet. My tomatoes look okay and most of the beans are about 3" high, so I think there will be some left for the humans. I have had an entire row of young bean plants disappear at once in the past, though.

I hope your port installation went smoothly and it’s trouble-free for you.

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Nah, I don’t think they’ll kill you - more likely the other way around. Hope all went well!!! Did you get your pain meds straightened out? Plus, whiney baby my foot - you should see me when it’s time for a blood draw. Oh the DRAMA! lol

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Okay, well that is that. OUCH! Feels like someone beat the crap out of my upper right chest and collar bone area.
They gave me NORCO, Ahhhh. But I can see why people abuse that stuff, it gives you a nice high. just smiley pleasant.
Got to see my old work colleague, she was working today, it was great, we are doing Breakfast on SAt. morning.
Doc was great, nurses were great. a little heavier on the propofol but still not bad, took a bit longer to get unshakey.
We will not even discuss the EX. He actually had a melt down when we got back to the house, I said I do not know how you can ever get mad at nothing, you have nothing to be mad about, he went ape shit, told me to shut up, screamed at me to GET out. Well I did. I am going to look for someone I can have as a patient advocate.
He is truly messed in the head, but then I have known that. Yes I was able to drive home fine.
What I ultimately want to do is totally get him out of my life. He is nuts! Thanks for thinking of me today.
Very achey and a bit of a head ache. Took a bit of a nap, may go take another.
Mango, GOOD DOGGIE!!! Probably a youngster! Woo hoo!!! :slight_smile:

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Sounds like you get the gold star for patience there.
What a dummy DH is, good riddance.

Good idea to get a patient advocate.
If you do need someone they will be there for you.

Glad you are ok.
You know everyone was anxious about you.
Thanks for reporting back and that you are ok with it all.

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glad to know it’s done and you’re home ~

((hugs)) laced with calm and peace ~

Jingles & AO ~

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Glad that’s done. Another step over with:-)

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Kim, glad to hear from you and the procedure, while not fun I am sure, was tolerable. {{}}

Ex… remember he’s an ex for a reason and you don’t need that in your life right now (if ever).

Yes, please look for a patient advocate. So glad to hear you are pleased with the medical staff. That can make a huge difference.

Do you know when you get your first chemo yet?

Naps are good. Forward looking plans like lunch with your former work colleague are good. Drugs that help you feel comfy are good!!!

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Thanks guys! Seriously, >I took 4 Ibuprophen, and fell assleep till about a half hour ago.
Took the pain right away. I know it is there, it feels like a beat to crap muscle.
I only wish someone could see or hear idiot in action. After I said that, he said, you get mad at everything! WHAT? Then he started raising his voice, and I said… see, right there, what are you yelling about? And from there he gets nuts.
It seriously has to be some mental thing. Slams his lap top down, by this time I stood up grabbed my keys, and was walking out, he is still yelling GET OUT GET OUT. This is his old behavior, But according to him it is my fault, because even asking him why he gets so mad, was me trying to start a fight, and why can I not understand he does not want to talk about it.
He looks like a crazy person, like he has no control over his anger. AND he is actually on meds… HAs been for years.
Not strong enough.
You know how I said I told him I was not going to do work for him anymore, which I did, over a week ago.
He is classic manipulator, I thought about this, After I had put down rest of lime and fertilizer, he starts saying, well, Should we get mulch, I said, you can do anything you want. And several more things.
Seriously I am much happier alone than to deal with this anymore. Great sweet supportive person to have around when you are dying huh.

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We, each one of us should remind ourselves that “life is too short for this shit” EVERYONE.

Kim, kick his ass to the wall, this IS all about you and damn all to do with him, so move on, get another advocate…cut him out and move on.

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YAAAAAAY for getting through the procedure! now it is the best kind of procedure–done!! :slight_smile: And yay for thinking about getting a patient advocate, that will be hugely helpful

your ex sounds like an asshat–> definitely let him go play in the mulch!! :slight_smile:

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Glad that’s behind you… onward!!! Plans for this weekend? Not just Kim but everyone?!

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I am glad the port is in. Now you and your docs can get down to business. I’ll say it again regarding the Ex…jettison his A**.

Susan

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I’m glad that’s over with. One hurdle down!

Dump him faster than a hot potato. What an asshat. You will be so much happier without his crap to deal with and can concentrate on taking care of and being kind to yourself!

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Glad you got it done.

Ex may be a habit. Like that persistent weed patch that’s always there and you just go weed it like you have. But, you know, you can spray figurative round up on that mofo.and be done with it.

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I’m glad that’s over with Kim and that it wasn’t too terrible for you. A patient advocate is exactly what you need going forward. I have been told that you can call your medical insurance people for help in finding one, don’t know if that is correct but you could start there. Otherwise I would think one of those wonderful nurses could help you with that.

Wish we could set a groundhog on him…

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Well, glad that port thing is over. Now to get rid of ex…….attack groundhogs sound good. g

When I had my port installed I cried like a child. Every time I had the chemo needle inserted in to it I cried. Sobbed. I felt so robbed.

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