OP, I am very close to your age. I go to school, work full time, and I manage to ride. I have a QH gelding, who is capable of jumping HUGE, but he was just ran at fences (after flunking out of roping and being a bucking horse). We went back to square one and are currently tightening up lateral work and doing small fences here and there. I work off my board at a small, private barn, and do all the training myself (lessons here and there when I can afford). You keep saying you can’t afford board and training, but there are so many people that are willing to HELP out there. They are willing to help young adults, with good attitudes, that work hard because they were there before. I’m a jumper, but my BO is Dressage. She has helped me in more ways with my riding than many trainers.
I also worked as a WS before that and rode everything. I was like you and rode the crappy horses, the green horses, the stoppers, the over jumpers, and the horses that shouldn’t jump but “hey the young girl bounces, so put her ontop of it”. I know where you are coming from. It would be so nice to get on a nice $100k horse and go around, not paying for anything and just working on myself.
Step off the unicorn. It isn’t going to happen. You do seem entitled. I understand your frustrations, I really do. I always say when I get rich I will buy a nice, packer and put it in full board/train so I can just worry about me. I am sure by then unicorns will exist and pigs will fly, because I am going to school to be a Vet Tech. LOL rich is not in a vet techs vocab.
You don’t NEED to go to a Big 10 for a Nutrition Degree. You can get your Nutrition Degree close to home and it won’t ding you. Yes, Big 10’s are nice but they aren’t realistic for everyone.
I also see on another thread you said you don’t want a OTTB (not only because of the bills) but because they pull so much they will hurt you. Uhm, what 4’ft jumpers have you ridden that go along on the buckle? My QH pulls more than my OTTB ever did. I think it’s a crappy breed generalization.
What I get is that you just want a super nice horse, to jump super big, and to not work for it because you are sick and have daddy won’t give you money.
Take a break and look back at yourself and figure out what you REALLY want. Get yourself better and comfortable so you aren’t in pain. If you are living with chronic pains why do you want to ride big jumpers? It makes no sense. Try a new sport, try a new discipline. You want to talk about people from IL that had to work to make it? Read about Will Simpson.
I think you just need to take a breather and re-evaluate yourself and your priorities. Think about what makes you happy because you can’t afford it, and think about how hard you are willing to work to make it happen.