This is long… Thank you for reading. This dog means a lot to me.
A little over a year ago we noticed what we thought was a hemorrhoid on my then 8 year old Catahoula. We had neutered him about a year prior when he was 7.5 years old a couple of months after we rescued him. We took him to the vet and they said it was cancer. Second and third opinions agreed on the cancer diagnosis likely from having his manly bits for so long prior to his life with us.
What they didn’t agree on was what to do next. One said absolutely do surgery, one was kind of like “well you could or you couldn’t,” and the third said that even if we did surgery we weren’t guaranteed it wouldn’t come back and if it did come back it would likely be way worse. Since it was going to be about $2,000 for the removal we decided to go with vet #3 and not remove and just keep an eye on it.
It’s been growing and it’s about fist sized now. Its right under his anus so we have to be very good about keeping it clean… Let’s just say he’s probably cleaner than most dogs out there because it gets our undivided attention several times a day…
This past Sunday (Jan 31) it “exploded” for lack of a better term. Blood everywhere… “Stuff” and “junk” coming out… I freak out and call my vet and they said it’s likely ulcerated and there’s not much we can do except what we’ve always done - keep him clean and keep him happy… Watch his gums to make sure they don’t get pale and make sure he seems to feel okay.
These are my questions:
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Has anyone dealt with anything like this before? What happened and please be honest…
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How do I know when my dog’s life is worth living? This dog was not only a diehard indoor dog, but he slept in my bed every night between DH and I. With all the blood (it’s like a slow drip on and off) and “stuff” (its not infected, it’s hard to describe but it’s tumor junk) we’ve had to keep him outside. We have a 2 or 3 acre dog yard with a barn to keep him out of the elements. We have two dogs already that stay outside the majority of the time (in for bad weather) and they’re happy as can be… But this dog isn’t. Sure, he’s fine… but he’s not happy… When do I put that ahead of my own selfish desire to not kill him? The vet is looking after him and medically we don’t have to put him down, yet… It’ll be soon though. Since the “explosion” there’s been a new growth about the size of a golf ball out one side… I can’t even imagine the pressure he was dealing with… We rubbed and wiped this thing every day. We are still doing that because we have to keep it clean. It looks like the most painful thing I have ever seen on a dog, but he is unfazed. Like he doesn’t even feel this giant bleeding mass on butt…
DH pointed out that in GA it’s only a matter of time until the flies come this spring. Once we have insects to deal with I don’t know what we can do… I don’t know that he’ll even make it that long…
Again, the vet has seen pics and is advising us on what to do (appointment later this week, but daily conversations/pics) and we haven’t really had the “it’s time” or “it will be time soon” conversation. It’s really just centered around, “is it clean, is it infected, is he in pain?” kind of stuff…
It’s just heavy on my mind and I’d like some unbiased opinions.