TPBs, I don’t disbelieve you, but I will say again that I think you are hypersensitive.
First, being a snoopy sort, I would have dug in and found out exactly was given. “Relaxation shot” is sort of vague. “Hey kid, (Assistant, whomever) What was in that shot? Horsey seems real happy now.” If they were so blasé about it, then they wouldn’t have hesitated to answer. Or you can still check the fridge or medical storage spot. What’s in there and how much of it is there? That should tell you more than just “I saw!”
Second, just as this gal wanted to have a good run for the video, in whatever way she thought she could get it, anytime people compete, if it be bikes or horses or whatnot, there will be SOME people who want to win, via WHATEVER way they think they can. That’s just a fact of life, some people are bad, and if you can’t understand that, then IMO, there’s no getting through to you. No, cheating/drugging is not right, but that’s just life, and people. You will never find a group of people who compete against each other, where SOMEONE will not want to find an advantage.
If you don’t want to compete in any sport where no one cheats, ever, and you will never be up against someone who has tried to “get an edge”, then you should never compete in anything, ever again. Period.
Third, as you said:
“It is not enough for me to insist that my horse isn’t drugged. For that reason, there is no need to discuss this with the trainers. I don’t want to be a part of a competitive sport that uses drugs to gain an advantage, and if that means that all I do with my horses is hack around and jump the 3’ fences that I have at my farm, then so it is.”
Your insistence that the whole barn, even the absent trainer (whom you said you would NOT BOTHER TO TALK TO) show themselves to be perfect people is unrealistic. Sad, but true. You also said that the head trainer assured you that he/she agreed with you re: drugs, but you won’t help this person enforce the standards that you and he/she had agreed on. Shame on you.
I am not someone who would condone the drugging of horses for non-medical reasons. But when you say, in effect, “I don’t like this so I’m not going to play any more and not tell anyone why!” is way too much for me to wrap my head around.