The Big C! RIP Kim, see pg. 218

Kim ~ Jingles for a better Saturday morning ~ wishing you…

Cats.

Coffee in your Hadley coffee mug.

Comfort.

You’ve got friends ~

  • btw you can mix the two coffees if you
    don’t want all the caffeine …like
  • one scoop = ‘loaded’
    three scoops = decaf makes a nice pot = 8 cups without sending you in orbit :eek::lol:
    depends on one’s caffeine needs :winkgrin:
    Enjoy !
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Might be time to start raising a little hell…

Thinking of you…no matter which path you choose, it’s a journey you won’t be taking alone.

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Kim, I hope that you wake up to a warm, sunny day and the first thing you hear are birds singing. I hope then that ZuZu’s fresh coffee brightens your morning even more and is the start of a day of taking it easy outside, getting fresh air and enjoying some sun. Please try to remember that you have so many people thinking of you throughout the day, so if you feel lonely, close your eyes and feel our warm embrace. We’re here.

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This!!! Supposed to be a glorious day. And a few more days of sunshine after all the rain we got should really send stuff into full bloom. I have a few more of my flower beds to clean up at the Ex’s. They are mine cause I am the one who first put them in. He wants to help, but limited in what he can do, no bending with his hip.
And yes I will call the office on Monday morning. Ashley is so on the ball, it may be the oncologists office.
Not a good sign if you ask me. we will see.
So Zuzu are you saying if I make the coffee straight without mixing the decaf I may be flying? That might not be such a bad thing since my energy is limited.
I did find a Pony club in a town near me. I have the email of the leader so I am going to email her and see if she is interested in some of my stuff.

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Add to that Grandma’s “don’t borrow trouble”.

Don’t waste time with worries.
Spring loose your inner grasshopper.
Manage for what you can.
Enjoy the moments as they come along.

Hope you have a wonderful spring has sprung weekend.

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Lol!! You’re “movin’ on up” in the coffee world thanks to our sweet Zu Zu! :lol:

Kim, it sounds like you have a good handle on your expectations and what you want, which is the most important thing.

Just remember, you may be losing some energy but you are not losing your independence. You just need to learn how to do the things you want to do in smaller stages and a bit slower…pace yourself. Slow down and have some mini-breaks in between your tasks instead of going at your usual “hell bent for leather” pace, that way you won’t tire out as quickly.

Thinking of you often and fondly.

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Kim ~ just trying to give you options with your coffee.

  • never sure if people are only de-caf these days.

Both are excellent alone or mixed .IMHO
May take a practice or two to get ‘your’ recipe.

this may ??? be difficult to believe but I tend to be a bit :confused: ‘busy’ = wild …:eek: overbearing = obnoxious
:lol: so I no longer drink ‘fully loaded’ …my family and friends prefer I mix some decaf blend into my coffee recipe.
CAN YOU EVEN BELIEVE THAT ???!!! :lol::lol::lol:
very true :frowning: oh well :lol::lol::lol:

I truly hope it brings you some comfort this morning .

It’s Saturday … let’s all get out there for some SUNSHINE …:smiley:

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Good Morning, Kim! I’m glad you are going to be digging in the dirt today. It’s so good for the soul, and I have read so many articles lately about how good it is for you. So, go out, soak up some sun and enjoy the feeling of sinking your hands into that good, rich earth.

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Busy?? You?? NEVER!!! Your personality shines through the internet and we all love it!~!!

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Kim, I’m late to this thread and I just want to say that cancer sucks. The only thing you can do is do what you can do. You have support and jingles from here.

Lisa

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Hi folks! It was a lovely day, more like June than May, except for the just budding trees. But things are a popping!
I have to mow my lawn tomorrow. Something I really like to do. :slight_smile:
Got the bests mostly finished at the old house, not to my usual standards, that will be another day or so.
Spent so much time picking up all the stick from the wind storm Thursday.
I am a bit annoyed that I have not heard anything from the docs…
I am going to call first thing Monday, Hey people, Your wasting what life I could have left!!!
Coffee is wonderful, I still have to tweak how much I use. :slight_smile:

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Just remember:

“While walking thru life, there is no path to travel.
We make our own as we go, each one our own.”

Call Monday, you want to know.
​​​​​​​Is your path to keep making as you go along.

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Oh wow! SPRING!! YAY! and Yay for the sweet smell of mown grass. We had crazy wind here too (so far have resisted the pick up stick part but there are plenty out there f or me to grab!! :slight_smile: ) And yay for wonderful coffee!!!

I was thinking of you when I was doing barn chores today and these were my rambly thoughts in no particular order

  1. Of course, you don’t have to do a bloody thing. If t here is one thing my husband drilled in to my head, it was that he didn’t have to do anything and he certainly didn’t owe anyone anything. totally his path, his choices. so hard for me to remember when I had so many opinions about things!!! so these are just what I remember!!

2 That said, I found it helpful to think about all the things that needed to be done and to match them up with people. There were plenty who wantd to “do something” but didn’t know what to do. Many times the thing they hit on wasn’t helpful at all. It was better to give them something to do. for example, my mother drove us to many of DH’s doc appointments. it was really relaxing for me, to have a moment not to be “at the wheel,” she really enjoyed it, and my husband adored my mother. My stepdad did a lot of shopping for us, which was very helpful Because-- >

  1. sometimes–not always–it can be helpful to have someone else dealing with doc appointments–when, what kind of prep, etc. And it can be easier for someone else to keep pushing–NEED AN APPOINTMENT HERE! NO, IT NEEDS TO BE TODAY/THIS WEEK/whatever. That was something I could do and had no problem being pushy, which allowed my DH to be more relaxed. Not always necessary but something I remember was helpful.

  2. And these docs–oncs and palliative–were 24/7 so there was always someone available, particularly the awesome palliative care people–they were right on which meds were working, which weren’t, which needed to be tweaked. DH was definitely the total marine–pain is weakness leaving the body and all that–and they were wonderful with him so, as I mentioned, he could keep working, doing what he liked to do, for a long time. Longwinded way of saying don’t be shy about asking for stuff. :slight_smile:

My husband was far more good natured and patient probably than I was, as it seemed like as soon as people found out he was diagnosed they had recommendations–> my cousin’s aunt’s husband’s sister’s boyfriend was diagnosed with <something> and they lived on coffee grounds and rose hips for SIX YEARS and they’re cured!!! My nephew’s girlfriend’s dogwalker when to Bolivia and lived on cocoa leaves and lemongrass tea and she’s totally clean!!! I would get impatient with that but he w as really good about thanking them for their experience and their good wishes (I was more like, WHAT THE FRUIT BAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?)

And yet, when I hear of others, I have to fight the same urge to make all sorts of recommendations!!! I guess it comes from wanting to be helpful, to somehow make our experiences meaningful!!

glad it was such a lovely day!! rain here tomorrow so I suppose I’ll actually have to clean :frowning:

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Glad you had a good day in the garden. Sometimes that’s just the “therapy” you need.

Don’t get too caught up in the fact that the onc office has not made an apt yet. Those particular docs are really overloaded. I just remember that every oncologist I had to deal with at each hospital was slammed with cases. I hope that you can get into someone soon, though. And once the palliative care people have their mitts on you they will be a great help.

Hoping tomorrow you have enough energy (even of it has to be created by coffee) to go and enjoy another lovely day! I was poking about in my “garden” (4 pots of catnip, 2 mini roses and a couple of aloes - so overwhelming NOT) and thinking of you.

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Kim, I haven’t been posting on this thread because anything I can post seems so inadequate, but I read all your posts and I have been thinking of you often and sending thoughts of peace, healing, and comfort. I hope that you are able to see the oncologist soon and see what treatment options are available. I understand not wanting to be miserable from the treatment. My Dad had stage IV colon cancer. He was treated with Chemo and they tried to get him in to some trials, but he was not a good candidate. The chemo helped for awhile and he felt pretty good most of the time, and gave him about 2 additional years. That was 12 years ago, so I know treatment has come a long way since then. I am hopeful they can find a treatment option that will extend life while maintaining quality of life.

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Kim, I thought of you today, too! I finally got myself outside and did some planting. I’ve been hibernating for a long while after getting a head injury, but you’ve inspired me to get out and garden again. Digging in the dirt really is therapeutic! Thank you for sharing your strength.

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Yes gardening is very therapeutic. Just seeing things start to grow!
And as far as strength goes, it is everyone on here that has given me so much!! :slight_smile:
Glad that you are finding yours! :slight_smile:

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Mow Mow Mow …

Breathe … look around … Breathe

Enjoy the first mow of the season …

((hugs)) laced with spring sunshine ~

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Yes Kim, as a little humor- I too thought of you while cleaning stalls. It’s a dirty job, but a lot of us, I’m sure, do our serious thinking there.

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Kim, I am glad Saturday was a good day. I like digging in the dirt too. I have to mow today too. I decided I enjoyed that and fired my lawn service last year after they mashed all my downspouts and kept forgetting to blow the sidewalks. I can do a lot better job than that;).

Regarding the oncologist…can you enlist your PCP, the gastroenterologist or surgeon to go in the backdoor and get some action? They tend to respond quicker when one of their own contacts them.

Have a good day:yes:.

Susan

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