Have you thought of donating your body to a medical school? They take care of everything.
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You know Joanne, I actually have. I wondered if they would want a 60 Yr old Body with cancer.
I may have to look into it. Thanks for reminding me. 
I think about you every single day and wish Michigan was not so far away. I would visit you. I would bring my silly pony Dusty who is so funny. He thinks he is āall that and a bag of chips ā no, make that TWO bags of chipsā. Or, I could bring my wonderful Rocky Road, my TWH who is YAY YAY YAY sound again after resting from a stifle injury. He is very reserved, but oh so gorgeous. Or, if you like dogs, my miniature poodle Blackie who does not know he is a fancy dog. He would play with you all day long with his āpurple toyā, or, if you did not want to do that anymore, he would lie down close to you. I would find a fresh tomato for you!
I am so sorry your real life friends are not being friends to you. You DO have friends here!
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A year ago I did my own cremation plan. Itās paid for. Was about 1300. The only cost that would go up is the ME fee. I have nuttin fancy. Plain simple. My sis says, she will collect me and sprinkle at a park.
good to talk to lawyer.
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All sounds so wonderful!! I picked folks who were not real friends.
Using the word āFriendā is wrong to describe them. I am over it.
When I am gone, my virtual friends will at least remember .
The one thing I am sorry for is not getting to ride one or two more times. I so miss horses.
after over 50 years of always having them in my life. Well I figured I would do something with them,
even thought I was not planning on owning one again. But to never sit on one again. Makes me sad.
Oh And Blackie sounds like a total joy. My plan was when these 2 cats were gone, to adopt something in need of a person to love them, Poodles are so sweet. they are real people dogs.
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With āfriendsā like thatā¦ahhh, who needs 'em. Your friends are here. And I bet one of us could hook you up with the occasional pony ride.
SCM1959 - can I borrow Blackie? He sounds adorable. I met a woman the other day who had a 15 month old little black poodle and he was so cute I wanted to dognap him!
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Kim, I think that youāre being quite practical about the situation. Doctors may be used to seeing more emotional responses and itās also their āmissionā to treat and cure. So letting it be, can be against their character. That and we all handle ourselves differently in any given situation. The only thing that matters is what you want.
I am also opting for a ājust toss me into natureā plan. I donāt need to take up space or spend money on some box in the ground!
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I know CC I think that is totally the case. Yes I would bet most people just say, do what ever you can to help me get cured, no matter what, They put themselves in the total control of the docs. And I do believe that most docs have feelings,
I Just am not willing to do whatever to be able to what, lie in some hospital bed for a few more months.
I wish it was not true, I wish it would just magically disappear, but that is not going to happen.
In truth I wish I knew a date, sick huh!!
No never liked the idea of buried in a box. Seems against nature to me. Back from whence I came! :lol:
Besides there would be no one visiting my grave.
Feeling awfully morbid and sorry for myself this morning. Snapping out of it now.
A TOMATO, My Kingdom, for a Tomato!!! :lol::D:winkgrin:
Dang it I will find some.
Oh Lawn guy and girl friend did a nice job on the front, this morning I am going to finish the back yard before it gets too hot. Supposed to be back to hot and 90ās.
Yesterday was such a true summer day, not humid 80s sunny. light breeze.
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I think youāre entitled to feel morbid and sad. I would too - sometimes I feel like that way and there isnāt a thing wrong with me, apart from being older and fat. 
Iām glad your front yard is looking good and I hope you can get the back done before it gets too hot. Was your weather always this way or has it gotten hotter? We used to have real 4 seasons, with snow in the winter, cool springs, hot summers but not this hot until the dog days of August. Now we have spring in February, things start blooming, then a cold snap in March & April and blazing hot from May to September.
Oh well, I may just be showing my age and remembering things better than they actually were. 
I hope you have a good day today! Drink plenty of water and if I had a tomato to send you, I sure would.
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No we have 4 distinct seasons, The heat an humidity show up in July and Aug. but usually it is only for a few days.
But hey, weather. wait a minute it changes.:yes:
I am off to the farmers market, Wish me luck.
And the back will get done around 8 tonight, it is cooler now but super wet from the morning dew.
I may weed wack in the shade later. I am obsessive about that. LOL
I have been hand pulling along the back fenceline and it looks nice. And hand pulling weeds is so therapeutic
Stay cool guys!
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Hope your quest for tomato was successful! It is way too hot here as well.
Iām happy for you that you have your own space to putter in. Hang in there, and please donāt forget that we are here. We do care, as you must know by now. :yes:
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No the great tomato hunt goes on.
Went to my farmer friend Deb. Had a long chat, She said maybe this weekend.
NOt ripe enough. And Yes Skydy, I am so thankful for all of you!!! ((((HUGS))))))
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Kim,
Sounds like you are in a relatively good place mentally given your life situation.
If we all lived near you I suspect youād be wishing for some peace and quiet.
Sorry the 'mater hunt isnāt panning out yet. Iāve discovered the āon the vineā 'maters at the store actually have some taste to them (not as much as heirloom but not bad).
Here in Phoenix, the 'maters are pretty much done. They wonāt set fruit past 95f and now just getting to hot for the plants to be happy.
Do things you enjoy!
{{Kim}}
PS - any photo subjects/topics that you particularly enjoy??
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Isnāt there somewhere local that you could go riding? What about the former student that recently contacted you to tell you about her new horse? Maybe you could get together with her for an occasional ride.
And why not contact those āfriendsā now while you still have a chance and let them know how you feel about the way they have behaved towards you? It might give you some closure or maybe it would be worth hearing their explanation. I have to say, I find it very odd that all of your āfriendsā just deserted you when they learned you were sick, I can see that happening with maybe one or two, but people are usually more compassionate than that.
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Well it is not like I had many friends to begin with.
I have only had a few I mean 2 or 3. And funny I was always the one going to āMeetā them
I really have no one. Always been a loner. except for the few, and hay, maybe I thought more of the friendship that they did. IT is really okay. I am happy alone.
It just would have been nice to get a phone call from one of them, or gee let me come over and what can I do?
Not that I would ask for anything, but hey.
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Iām really sorry about that Kim, I do wish you had some friends that lived nearby, but you have COTH!
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I understand about having a few friends. DH had a few. He was quiet and self-employed in a small consultancy practice. When we met he had 2-3 different books on how to make small talk. No kidding. He would have been perfectly content living by himself on a boat.
I donāt have scads of friends, either, but a few from the barn, and now a few from work. I think those of us who work independently, as it sounds like you do, donāt have the same opportunities to meet people as those who work for large organizations.
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Kim, what if we put out a call for a COTHāer in your area, and see if we can connect you with a horse? Iām very protective of my big mare, but I have put little kids on her for a leadline, and have put adults on her in special circumstances. If we were closer, Iād definitely put you on her.
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I wish you were near enough to ride my horse, I really do xx
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My Rocky Road would be a dream for you. He is smooth and he adjusts himself to whoever sits on him ā¦ which actually I donāt let many people ride him, but I would be honored to have you ride him. He is so reserved most of the time, but he is a fool for puffed peppermint candies and can just not contain his eagerness (although he is still very polite about taking it carefully from my hand). He will stand forever as I sort out the bridle, holding his mouth open wide for the bit.
Sometimes I wish we could just compress the country a bit so we could all visit; we could stretch it back to normal size when we are finished, right?
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